Last Updated on February 24, 2022 by Kelly Ashley
Many thanks to Marissa Pane from www.spiesfittofight.com for this fantastic guest post! Marissa is a spiritual life coach for aspiring creative entrepreneurs living with depression and anxiety – a welcome guest who fits right into our tribe!
The world is darker today. Like someone placed a gray film over my eyes while I was sleeping. I woke up and for some reason, everything just seems darker.
There’s no rhyme or reason, other than the chemical imbalance happening within my brain. Wait… how do you prove that? How do you see that? How can you possibly explain what that’s like?
Well, for over two decades, I’ve lived with clinical depression and an anxiety disorder. This dimly lit world is somewhat an expected occurrence due to my mental illness. For a huge period of my life, this darkness was the only lens which I saw through. I actually didn’t realize there was a world out there full of beauty, life, and vibrant colors. It wasn’t until 2012 when I began a journey to recovery that I realized there was much beyond the life I was currently experiencing. Now, I am blessed with only succumbing to the darkness for short periods of time every few months or so.
And of course, as I was tasked with the pleasure of writing a blog for Kelly, the darkness started to takeover me. Initially, this post was going to be a bare bones mental health awareness piece, but apparently the universe wanted me to give something more. So, here I am, climbing back out of the dimly lit world which took control over me for about a week.
Why am I telling you this? Because I’m here, I made it out alive once again. Which isn’t a small defeat. There are 121 suicides every day. Those are the people who weren’t aware of the resources, who felt alone, who had lost all hope in the world that surrounded them. I understand why people take their own lives, I was on the brink of desperation many times before myself. The reason I am still with you is because of my relentless support team, a family who did everything in their power to show me hope, and a budding belief in something greater out there.
I was beginning to experience a spiritual awakening!
For most, myself included, a spiritual awakening is followed by a rush of emotions. Everything in my life is divinely connected to everyone and everything?? What?!!? Yeah – I get it, I’ve been there too.
However, in my case, I was on the brink of collapse when this awakening happened. I had given up complete and total hope for the world, I didn’t believe in a god, I didn’t believe in myself, and I was just a walking zombie hoping my heart would stop beating in my sleep.
Then, it hit me. I woke up to what reality truly was and in an instant, I found hope. I found a reason to exist. I had finally discovered what my soul had entered this world to do. I was here to suffer through my mental illnesses so I could be a source of inspiration for those who are lacking a sense of hope.
My spiritual awakening saved me from my depression and anxiety, but I know that is quite the opposite in most cases. Usually this type of awakening and heightened awareness is followed by feelings of isolation and disconnection from the people around you who have not yet woken up.
Just know that what you’re experiencing is a divine moment, that so many people never get to have. You’re at a higher level of consciousness than the rest of society and thank god for that. Have you seen the news lately? As a nation, as a world, we need higher thinking people. We need people who understand the powers of love and connectivity. We need souls with a connection to spirit. We need people like you and me!
You’re far from alone and even if you’re unable to relate to the people whom you were once very close with, there is a greater purpose as to why. You have evolved into higher consciousness and you’re ready to serve the world.
Instead of feeling isolated, tell the world about your experience. The more we talk about our awakening and the more we talk about life’s stories, we start bringing humanity back into this digital emotionless world man has created.
If you’re not a pro at speaking up or writing about your experiences, I recommend using my course Turning Wisdom Into Words as a guide. I created TWIW as a foundational course for people to learn how and why it’s important to share their experiences with mental illness. Plus, I’ve noticed that many people who have experienced spiritual awakenings also struggled with some sort of mental health issues at one point or another in their life.
Let this course be your guide and a first step for you to help awaken those around you!
Good luck on your journey and I’m so glad you’ve made it this far. Namaste.
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I too have suffered with depression from a very young age (primary school age) back then I felt lost and wanted to go home. As I grew older and less connected to where we all come from, it manifested into a dark pit of dispare. Many times I tried to take my own life and abused alcohol from a very young age. I got married, had my eldest son, who died after just a year on this planet from a rare genetic condition. That’s when the first stirrings started. I had just given birth to my second son and 11 months later gave birth to my daughter. Life went on until 11 years later when everything just turned upside down. My second son had just recovered from cancer, my daughter was starting secondary school and my life seemed empty. Then I got the most almighty kick up the bum from spirit and everything felt out of kilter. It took a couple of years to regain balance but I have come out the other side a calmer, brighter person with a great empathy and understanding of others. I feel I have finally found who I truly am and reconnected with where we really come from and return to. Xx
Hi Claire, it seems that traumatic experiences can trigger this in us. I’m sorry that you went through such pain, but delighted to hear of your awakening and true alignment now. Beautiful. Much love to you x