Last Updated on February 25, 2022 by Kelly Ashley
All my life I’d been trying to find answers. Questions rattling around my obsessive mind would torture me. I’m a seeker for sure. What should I do? Where should I go? What would make me happy? Even stupid things like ‘what should I wear today?’ sometimes stumped me. Over the last few years, some of my spiritual experiences and the seeming life or death decisions within them drove me to near breaking point, agonizing over options, terrified that I’d make the wrong one. It seemed that even after years of meditational practices, conversing with guides, angel cards and looking for signs, I was still no better at making decisions. Even when I tried to dig down deep within myself, I was always left in a state of confusion.
Where Are The Answers?
I sought answers from spiritual gurus, healing modalities and trawling the internet. I felt sure that if I could just find the right ‘teacher’, the right system or practice, that the truth would be revealed to me. I was 12 when I read my first metaphysical book, and since I opened that first page seeking an understanding of the universe, I’ve never stopped.
All of these avenues felt as though they had a ring of truth to them initially. I was drawn to them because I felt that they resonated with something I knew. Each one had a promise of hope, of heaven on earth, of happiness and fulfillment, but none of them delivered. Some lasted longer in my life than others, before I finally grew sick of them, knowing that it sounded much better in theory. Each one was abandoned on precisely the moment that I found something else to fill the predecessors space – like I was renting out a room in my mind.
Realization
This frustration was leading to boiling point until suddenly one day, I had the urge to move the mass of mind, body and spirit books I owned from my wardrobe, to storage instead. It was long overdue, because I was running out of space anyways, but something had been nagging at me for a while to get rid of them. As I packed the books into a load of boxes I shook my head in disbelief. How was it possible that I had studied and practiced so many perspectives, yet never found the one true answer? I was full of the knowledge of all of these things. I could have taught most of them in depth, but it became clear to me that knowledge and knowing were two different things. I had learned so much from external sources, I had memorized the knowledge and carried out the practices, but they were all learned. They didn’t exist within me naturally – I had to put them there.
I became uncomfortable with the very notion of taking someone else’s knowledge and beliefs and accepting them as my own. I felt that if I hadn’t discovered them for myself naturally somewhere within, then in truth they were not mine. I would never truly ‘know’ because they did not come from me. It took a crisis point of confusion before I was ready to let go of what everyone else had told me. I had to come to a place where nothing made sense and I absolutely could not find truth, because I had to be willing to let go of everything. What I realized is that letting go is the only real way of finding the absolute truth. When you are willing to let go of everything, the truth can emerge, because it is no longer repressed by beliefs and perspectives and opinions. You are no longer holding it down.
The Awakening
An interesting thing happened when I decided to let all of that go. When there was no ‘brain candy’ to rely on or recite, it was as if my soul dug down to the depths. I had finally stopped searching outside for answers. I was no longer a seeker. I was no longer a seeker because I wasn’t looking anymore. I was finding – unearthing – realizing. A surge of insights, wisdom and awareness began to surface from deep within me, and it was from an entirely different place. It was a place of truly knowing. I was solid in my understanding, and trusting in the wisdom because it was not something I had learned – it was something I already knew. And this is why you’re here. You are here to awaken, to remember the truth of who you are, to access the wisdom that you came to share and assist the rest of the world with. We all have a part to play – and you’re no exception.
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A Promise To Myself
Soon after, I made a promise to myself. I would never again blindly believe or follow anyone else. No matter what anyone told me, or suggested was true, I knew I could always go within and let it go and that the truth would emerge to me, because you cannot lose the truth anyway. It was so freeing to live without holding on to presuppositions about life and spirit. Holding on rigidly had kept me trapped and closed minded. The only way to be truly free in my life was to let go of everything and find out what was left – what was naturally residing within me. All of the possibilities of the world could be explored when I let go. Now all that’s left is to see where it takes you…
The Next Step
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